I don't love God

Okay. 

Here is a parable Jesus spoke, likely meant for people who don't love God:

Luke 14: 

Jesus spoke about making peace with an enemy. 

I believe this scripture is intended for people who don't love God, but believe He exists, and want to make peace with Him.

I didn’t love God and I didn't feel loved by God, when I first surrendered to Christ.

And that’s what it was...a surrender, simply because I saw that God is more powerful than I,

and He offered eternal life that no one else can take away.

 
I went to Sunday school as a kid for ten years, I was made to go until I was 15, by orders per my mom. 

At 15, I wanted out of it so I could do other things on Sunday morning. 

As a young adult, I tried to be a macho stud-muffin of the 1970s. 

While I was too bashful to do all the damage I wanted to do, I did enough wrong to know I wasn’t good enough to go to Heaven.

  

I came to God as a captive, not understanding that I would also become his adopted child. 

I surrendered to him on the promise of amnesty, and purposed to do my best, from day-to-day.

 
Though I have made mistakes since then, and often failed mightily, there always seems to be a path back to God. 

This in itself shows me that the true God is capable of love, even when I’m not always sure what God's love is, 

though I believe I feel love toward my family.

 
So, it’s okay to just surrender to God because you know He always wins the war. 

In time, 

some-how, 

some-way, 

God will enable you to understand what real love is, and that He loves you.

The verse below is our promise about the unending relationship we can have with God:

  
1 John 3: